well the rabbit has died...

which was an old school way of saying,

I'M PREGNANT

if we're friends on facebook then i'm sure you've already heard the news.  if not, we should be friends.

i am about 14 weeks along and hitting my 2nd trimester.  and the first trimester was truly brutal.  we found out at the end of august and i still hadn't gotten my "monthly gift" and didn't think anything of it.  i still had the last week of august for it to come but i started having really bad pains in myyyyy....well lets just say i honestly thought i had breast cancer and we went to the health center on campus to get me checked out.  the doc asked me my symptoms and she said, "well, perhaps you're pregnant and lets have you take a preg. test before we test for anything else."  pregnancy sure does sound a lot better than the cancer of the breast.  and before i knew it i peed in a cup and sure enough there was a something a-cookin in my womb.  i was about 5-6ish weeks along at that point.  i remember feeling so nervous and in disbelief.  i've been wanting to get pregnant but when i actually was, it's just the craziest feeling when you find out.  brett and i couldn't stop looking and smiling at each other the whole day.

we are just absolutely thrilled and feel truly blessed.  again though, first trimester kicked my butt.  now that i'm a vessel carrying my child i tried eating SUPER healthy and drinking water like it's going out of style.  and i really HATE water.  i think it's boring and would be better with a cup of sugar and a kool-aid packet added to it.  around week 7 is when the dreaded nausea started kicking in.  from week 7 to week 10 i was throwing up every blessed day.  and from then on i was sick about every other day.  but every time i've thrown up it's been a little comforting to me knowing that the baby is healthy.  i've been trapped in my house, not even able to get up and walk around cuz i had really bad dizziness also.  i even started blacking out in the shower.  i was stinky and barfy and dizzy.  brett has taken the best care of me.  i'm so blessed to have him.  i've felt so bad for him though cuz he's always busy with school and work, but he takes the time to at least make me eat something when i refused and is there to make sure i didn't pass out in the shower.  brett and i thought that back in july was the best time that i left jamba.  i would NOT have been able to handle all the different smells and runnin around.  so i spent my time very productively by hovering over the porcelain throne spewing out my latest meal or glued to the couch watching the extended editions of the lord of the rings, which i watched twice, plus the 6hr special features of each one.  and yeah, that's how i spent my first trimester.    pretty sure most of my ward probably thinks i'm inactive cuz i could never make it to our 9.30 church.

i've been in my 2nd trimester for just a few days now and i can already tell a difference.  i've really only been nauseous just in the mornings till i eat something and usually i'm fine.  i hope to go out with brett a little more, go to church for once in my life, enjoy the fall weather before it starts snowing, and get a little more exercise.  i'm starting to get a little paunch for a tummy yet i've lost a few pounds due to barfing all those weeks.  i'm hoping to get more of an appetite back cuz eating just feels like a nuisance and is never fun anymore!

here's to hoping!

 and here are the ultrasounds i've been waiting weeks to put up!  i'm about 11 weeks in these pics.

brett and i think this one looks like rocky balboa, ready to box.