well the rabbit has died...

which was an old school way of saying,

I'M PREGNANT

if we're friends on facebook then i'm sure you've already heard the news.  if not, we should be friends.

i am about 14 weeks along and hitting my 2nd trimester.  and the first trimester was truly brutal.  we found out at the end of august and i still hadn't gotten my "monthly gift" and didn't think anything of it.  i still had the last week of august for it to come but i started having really bad pains in myyyyy....well lets just say i honestly thought i had breast cancer and we went to the health center on campus to get me checked out.  the doc asked me my symptoms and she said, "well, perhaps you're pregnant and lets have you take a preg. test before we test for anything else."  pregnancy sure does sound a lot better than the cancer of the breast.  and before i knew it i peed in a cup and sure enough there was a something a-cookin in my womb.  i was about 5-6ish weeks along at that point.  i remember feeling so nervous and in disbelief.  i've been wanting to get pregnant but when i actually was, it's just the craziest feeling when you find out.  brett and i couldn't stop looking and smiling at each other the whole day.

we are just absolutely thrilled and feel truly blessed.  again though, first trimester kicked my butt.  now that i'm a vessel carrying my child i tried eating SUPER healthy and drinking water like it's going out of style.  and i really HATE water.  i think it's boring and would be better with a cup of sugar and a kool-aid packet added to it.  around week 7 is when the dreaded nausea started kicking in.  from week 7 to week 10 i was throwing up every blessed day.  and from then on i was sick about every other day.  but every time i've thrown up it's been a little comforting to me knowing that the baby is healthy.  i've been trapped in my house, not even able to get up and walk around cuz i had really bad dizziness also.  i even started blacking out in the shower.  i was stinky and barfy and dizzy.  brett has taken the best care of me.  i'm so blessed to have him.  i've felt so bad for him though cuz he's always busy with school and work, but he takes the time to at least make me eat something when i refused and is there to make sure i didn't pass out in the shower.  brett and i thought that back in july was the best time that i left jamba.  i would NOT have been able to handle all the different smells and runnin around.  so i spent my time very productively by hovering over the porcelain throne spewing out my latest meal or glued to the couch watching the extended editions of the lord of the rings, which i watched twice, plus the 6hr special features of each one.  and yeah, that's how i spent my first trimester.    pretty sure most of my ward probably thinks i'm inactive cuz i could never make it to our 9.30 church.

i've been in my 2nd trimester for just a few days now and i can already tell a difference.  i've really only been nauseous just in the mornings till i eat something and usually i'm fine.  i hope to go out with brett a little more, go to church for once in my life, enjoy the fall weather before it starts snowing, and get a little more exercise.  i'm starting to get a little paunch for a tummy yet i've lost a few pounds due to barfing all those weeks.  i'm hoping to get more of an appetite back cuz eating just feels like a nuisance and is never fun anymore!

here's to hoping!

 and here are the ultrasounds i've been waiting weeks to put up!  i'm about 11 weeks in these pics.

brett and i think this one looks like rocky balboa, ready to box.

for the win

blehhhhh i feel like i haven't blogged in such a freakin long time when really its just been 2ish weeks.  i try to blog like, once a week but lately, ABSOLUTELY nothing has been going on.  it's brett's last semester and he's been working so hard in school.  he's doing his capstone and emphasis class at the same time and it's been kicking his butt.  it is of course his hardest and busiest semester ever.  most days of the week he's seriously gone from early in the morning to about 5pm.  then he meets with some classmates to work on homework together for a few hours in the evening.  i try not to complain too much about not getting to see him often when i think about my friends' husbands who are gone for loooooong periods of time.  i could not handle that.  

some recent and exciting news for my family is that my youngest sister erin just became homecoming queen!  i'm SOO proud of her.  she's grown up to be such a beautiful young lady who has become so outgoing in school and has become quite the popular one (darn her), which is more than i can say for myself.  we moved to WV when i was just starting 9th grade, kyla was starting middle school, and erin was in elem. school.  i felt like i was thrown into school hardly knowing anybody.  i was super shy and was just a band nerd.  thank goodness for the church, where seminary helped me to make friends with my fellow lds peeps.  but erin got to grow up with her friends and she became the ultimate band nerd yet she was cool.  she was drum major for 2 years, being head drum major for her last year of high school.  i love her so much and know that she'll do awesome things in her future.  she wants to be a fashion designer of some sort, so i can see her designing some hot stuff.      

congrats again doll.  you do the family proud.

but no matter how cool you are, i'll always know how much of a dork you were, are, and always will be.

love you tons hunny bunzz ♥

a baby shower for gwen

the time had come where i got the opportunity to throw one of my best friends a shower (a bridal or baby shower that is.) and so for my first party to throw, it was a baby shower for my bff gwen.

well i actually co-hosted the party with my other bff katie and thank freakin goodness i had her.  having someone else to plan this with was a huge stress reliever.
here's some of the delicious highlights of the partay!

we made/slaved over cake balls!  this is my 2nd attempt so i'm still working on perfecting them.  we tried putting them on lollipop sticks like the fabulous bakerella but it just didn't work! arghhhhhh it was so annoying.  whatever, perhaps next time.

check out this baby i made!  pretty sure its one of the most amazing yet annoying things i've ever made.  this is just one of those things you look at and say, "whoa i never thought i'd make a watermelon baby carriage."  i just have to say, i'm so proud of myself.  is that so wrong?

katie and i made this freaking cute diaper cake.  we tried the "smooth icing" look and it was really fun figuring it out.  and i think it worked out beautifully!  katie and i, not experienced in buying diapers, didn't realize they were green till we opened the box but we figured it didn't look too bad.

some of the games we had was the "find the small safety pins in the rice" game and it turned out to be a lot harder for the girls than they thought.  i remember playing this game at some relief society baby shower i went to years ago with my mom.

another game we did was decorating onesies!  we bought just enough onesies for each girl to decorate one.

   throwing this shower helped give me confidence knowing that i could maybe throw more of these in the future.  now all we're waiting for is for baby sienna moa to arrive!

i found it.

i just found the bestest, my most favoritest, and cutest picture i've ever seen.  (i know some of the words i used to describe this sweet pic doesn't exist but it's so true)

elephants are my ULTIMATE favorite animal and looking at this makes me wanna snuggle with a baby elephant.  the little boy is adorable too but the baby elephant has won my heart.

happiness is...

"We all search for happiness, and we try to find our own "happily ever after."  The truth is, God knows how to get there!  And he has created a map for you; He knows the way.  He is your beloved Heavenly Father, who seeks your good, your happiness."

-Pres. Dieter F. Uchtdorf

to me, happiness is...

1. showers of kisses from brett

2. watching ROCKY

3. tan lines

4. game/movie night with best friends

5. seeing my family

6. cocoa bean cupcakes

7. sunshine

8. hula dancing

9. conquering a new recipe

10. a really good hair day

he's my cherry pie

remember those cherries i told you about 2 posts ago?  well i attempted to make a cherry pie!  it was my first attempt at making a REAL pie and it didn't go too bad.  i was very excited...

it started bleeding in the oven.

oh, my little bleeding heart.

so we just got back from a little vacation to island park and yellowstone and it was just perfect and relaxing.  we went with our bffs steve and gwen and we stayed at one of her friend's cabin.  we went all over creation, west yellowstone, yellowstone park, and the grand teton park.  i felt like we saw alotta nature.  i also got to take gwen's maternity pics!  it was just for fun and to give me a little practice using ailinh's sweet camera she let me borrow.  (thanks girl!)

whenever i look at this paint pot i really wanna dive in.

seeing old faithful wasn't as exhilarating as when i first saw it when i was younger.  but brett's never seen it so now his dream has come true.  haha jk. 

            i'm loving life, lovin my man and have been learning to love nature.  it's not as horrible as i always thought it was. 

2 year

2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!

WOW. 2 years i've been married to my homeboy. you know, our anniversary is like our own holiday. i just get excited knowing that i get to spend the whole day with brett looking back at fond memories of how we got together and our first date, etc. i thought it was so cute looking back on our 1st year anniversary post and what a giddy little girl i was about my marriage. of course i'm still MADLY in love with my husband. i still have my giddy (can't believe i'm married) moments but i feel like our love has grown a lot deeper. i can safely say we're not honeymoonin it anymore and we've gotten to learn SOOO much more about each other than when we first got married. and i know we'll find out even more in the future.

here's a cute story from our wedding day.

our wedding song is "yellow" from Coldplay.

i can't listen to that song without crying...

so anyways, as we started our"first dance as a couple" brett started singing the words of the song to me. he's the kinda guy where he really wouldn't take the time to learn lyrics of songs like i do.

and right when he started singing i immediately bawled. i couldn't stop crying and i just lost it. i thought it was just one of the sweetest things he's ever done. i think it was also hitting me that i'm married, and that i found a man who truly loves me and i truly love him back.
he's my best friend and i don't ever wanna lose him.
he's stuck with me!


so to celebrate this momentous occasion we had dinner at our fav restaurant in idaho falls, texas roadhouse, and then went and saw a movie.
being young and poor that's really all we could do for our anniversary and it was just perfect.

then we came back home and watched our wedding video and couldn't help laughing at ourselves and getting a little teary eyed from our beautiful day.
i love seeing the differences in brett and i since our wedding day.
(yeah brett's hair is SOOO short! too short for me in fact. he seriously just cut it like, last week. he's gonna grow it out and he better keep it a little longer!)
we went back to where brett proposed to me on that fateful day.

sheesh i love him.